She could feel his presence before he appeared beside her, wings folded neatly on his back. He preferred his wolf form when they met - it made their relationship less strained. Betrayal had brought them closer, distrust fading into the shadows cast by the light of discovery. The moon hung overhead, as it did every night, the sky crystal clear. The Harvest Spirit had been returned the night before, a messy business, and even the humans could feel the peace in the air.
She was tired. Breaking the Triangle of Solomon on the pup had been difficult, even with Loki's knowledge and power, and two major nights in a row were beginning to wear her down. The only positive thing she had gotten out of it was her wing returned. The Harvest Spirit had given her all the magic her body needed to regrow, as a way to repay Uzume for finding her. She flexed it experimentally and smiled - her exhaustion would be worse if her wing was gone as well.
"You shouldn't have wasted your energy on that damn dog," Fukurokuju grumbled, sitting down next to her on the grass. Her brother had taken her to his realm in an effort to get her more rest, the demon-were only able to find her through their bond.
"I had to break that thing, it was disgusting," she replied. "And his energy was almost completely sealed away."
"It was his own fault. I'm surprised Loki let you do it," he continued sourly. "Much less help you."
Uzume shrugged. She had been surprised as well by how easily her brother had agreed to help. Perhaps it was a soft spot for wolves, or it could be her own soft spot for that particular youkai. Whatever it was, she was glad with the end result. It would take the wolf youkai some time to readjust to his full energy - and get his tail back - but she was already surprised by the amount of energy he had. It had multiplied tenfold in just a few hours.
"You don't get a say in any of this," Loki remarked, appearing behind them. A displeased look was in his silver-blue eyes as he crouched behind his sister, running a palm possessively over her returned wing. Fukurokuju made an effort to return the glare only for a moment before giving up.
"I'm surprised you let the pup anywhere near her," the demon-were argued. The trickster god was forced to agree, a grumble in the back of his throat.
"Would you two stop it?" Uzume demanded, her tone lacking any real anger. "I have enough problems to deal with right now, wouldn't you agree?"
They fell silent at her reminder. The angel had betrayed them, bound her companions with the help of whichever infernal demon she had sold herself to. They had allies, at least, but it was worrisome that the dragon seemed to be on the angel's side despite their best efforts. There were too many things, including another hunter, for them to worry about. Only that day she had been forced to astral project while driving in her mortal body to protect her human - Loki had taken over her body and kept it from being killed in a wreck of metal and fire. Petty arguments was not needed.
"Just rest for a few days. You need your strength because I'm not driving again anytime soon," Loki remarked, stroking her wings a few more times before rising. "I'm going to see Sevens."
She nodded absently, relaxing under the caresses while he disappeared. The demon-were remained next to her, unhappily allowing her to siphon his strength for her own use.
It was as peaceful as they were ever going to get.
Life
I've decided that I'm not ready to date yet.
For one thing, it causes way too much drama with my family that I just don't have the energy - emotionally or physically - to deal with right now. But that's not the main reason, not at all.
I think I'm just not ready, period. Yes, I miss the intimacy, both sexual and emotional. But that's not enough, I think, to start dating. I was with my stupid ex for almost three years and I've only been single for seven months. While in context that seems like a good amount of time, relatively I don't think it is. I think I'm still too emotionally clingy and - dare I say - vulnerable. What could be a fling for someone else and for me could turn into something more on my end, simply because of that attachment. I do want the intimacy and being with someone, all that stuff.
Which is exactly why I don't think I should date. Desperate, I am not. I know that. However, I do think I'm still at the stage where I could fall for the first guy to show me 'love' and I don't want to go through that again. I'm 21 years old, single and starting my life anew this fall. I've grown up over the summer, lost a lot of weight, made drastic changes in my life - I want to enjoy it.
Plain and simple: I don't think I want to be tied down in any way, shape or form just yet. I want to enjoy what I've got right now and roll with what life throws at me.
For one thing, it causes way too much drama with my family that I just don't have the energy - emotionally or physically - to deal with right now. But that's not the main reason, not at all.
I think I'm just not ready, period. Yes, I miss the intimacy, both sexual and emotional. But that's not enough, I think, to start dating. I was with my stupid ex for almost three years and I've only been single for seven months. While in context that seems like a good amount of time, relatively I don't think it is. I think I'm still too emotionally clingy and - dare I say - vulnerable. What could be a fling for someone else and for me could turn into something more on my end, simply because of that attachment. I do want the intimacy and being with someone, all that stuff.
Which is exactly why I don't think I should date. Desperate, I am not. I know that. However, I do think I'm still at the stage where I could fall for the first guy to show me 'love' and I don't want to go through that again. I'm 21 years old, single and starting my life anew this fall. I've grown up over the summer, lost a lot of weight, made drastic changes in my life - I want to enjoy it.
Plain and simple: I don't think I want to be tied down in any way, shape or form just yet. I want to enjoy what I've got right now and roll with what life throws at me.
Looking Up
This week was one of many firsts!
I started classes at George Mason. Criminal Law, Criminal Ethics, English 300, and Juvenile Delinquency. I'm enjoying them and it's only the first week, so here's hoping that continues. Projects for all them, but nothing that made me go, "OhmygodImdead!!" Here's hoping that keeps up or I shall write my last words here before drowning myself or something equally drastic.
Went to see Disturbed and Avenged Sevenfold on Tuesday with my dad and brother, who has returned from boot camp an official Private of the United States Army. Haelstorm opened and completely blew my ears out. Literally - they're still ringing two days later. But the concert has to be one of the best ones I've been to. First time I danced around, although I did not do the arm-waving and all that. Just kind of hopped around. Lots of energy, it was amazing! And got beer spilled on me, so had to wash my clothes at one in the morning. -_- My brother offered to do it, but I felt bad making him to my laundry, although I wasn't the one who dirtied it.
Also find myself in a sort-of-relationship. I say sort-of because we've agreed we like each other and want to see each other, but it's only been a few days so I'm tip-toeing. Just nervous, I don't want to screw anything up! So changed facebook status to 'in a relationship' because I could not think of an easier way to tell all my friends at the old campus - a rowdy bunch - I was dating one of their friends without inciting a huge scene. But, I don't want to pretend I'm not seeing him because that makes it look like I'm leading him on and that's just not right at all, since I do really like him. He's very nice, a little older than me with two kids from a previous marriage and you can tell he just loves them so much. We'll see how it goes, I'm keeping my hopes up instead of automatically thinking the worst. I want things to work! It sounds corny, but there just seems to be a connection I've never had with another guy, even my ex for two years.
Overall, I'm very happy. Stress at home, but I can leave whenever I want and hide at the campus, so it works out in the end. I have wonderful friends who are there for me, a great guy who wants to be with me, and things in my first semester of a university don't seem so intimidating. Life is finally settling in for me, I really want everything to work out. I don't think I've ever wished that so much in my life, usually I just tend to roll with the punches. This time, I'm actively hoping things go well, if that makes any sense. Not just, "Oh, I hope things go good." I'm literally trying to will it to happen! I think I deserve to be happy and everything is sort of happening at once, in a good way.
I realized I haven't posted in a while, partly due to stress and lack of time to actually sit down and write. But my first week is conquered and I hope to report on a second excellent week as the days go on!
I started classes at George Mason. Criminal Law, Criminal Ethics, English 300, and Juvenile Delinquency. I'm enjoying them and it's only the first week, so here's hoping that continues. Projects for all them, but nothing that made me go, "OhmygodImdead!!" Here's hoping that keeps up or I shall write my last words here before drowning myself or something equally drastic.
Went to see Disturbed and Avenged Sevenfold on Tuesday with my dad and brother, who has returned from boot camp an official Private of the United States Army. Haelstorm opened and completely blew my ears out. Literally - they're still ringing two days later. But the concert has to be one of the best ones I've been to. First time I danced around, although I did not do the arm-waving and all that. Just kind of hopped around. Lots of energy, it was amazing! And got beer spilled on me, so had to wash my clothes at one in the morning. -_- My brother offered to do it, but I felt bad making him to my laundry, although I wasn't the one who dirtied it.
Also find myself in a sort-of-relationship. I say sort-of because we've agreed we like each other and want to see each other, but it's only been a few days so I'm tip-toeing. Just nervous, I don't want to screw anything up! So changed facebook status to 'in a relationship' because I could not think of an easier way to tell all my friends at the old campus - a rowdy bunch - I was dating one of their friends without inciting a huge scene. But, I don't want to pretend I'm not seeing him because that makes it look like I'm leading him on and that's just not right at all, since I do really like him. He's very nice, a little older than me with two kids from a previous marriage and you can tell he just loves them so much. We'll see how it goes, I'm keeping my hopes up instead of automatically thinking the worst. I want things to work! It sounds corny, but there just seems to be a connection I've never had with another guy, even my ex for two years.
Overall, I'm very happy. Stress at home, but I can leave whenever I want and hide at the campus, so it works out in the end. I have wonderful friends who are there for me, a great guy who wants to be with me, and things in my first semester of a university don't seem so intimidating. Life is finally settling in for me, I really want everything to work out. I don't think I've ever wished that so much in my life, usually I just tend to roll with the punches. This time, I'm actively hoping things go well, if that makes any sense. Not just, "Oh, I hope things go good." I'm literally trying to will it to happen! I think I deserve to be happy and everything is sort of happening at once, in a good way.
I realized I haven't posted in a while, partly due to stress and lack of time to actually sit down and write. But my first week is conquered and I hope to report on a second excellent week as the days go on!
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